Take the Pain Out of Love then Love Won't Exist

I have to let it all out right now before I jump off a cliff. Sam, I will never forget what an amazing boyfriend you were to me for the time being. I get it, you're a guy and you have needs, but you need to learn to control those needs. There's no reason to lash out on me If i am not willing to fulfill those needs in the time being. I gave you everything; I gave you attention, respect, and most importantly; I gave you my life and my love. The day I handed you my heart was the same day you started to tear it apart. Being your girlfriend wasn't enough, you didn't even refer to me as your girlfriend for a period of time because you knew I wouldn't give you any. In time, as you told me you started to have feelings for me so we made it official. My greatest weakness towards you was that i cared too much. I knew how you were, and somewhere deep inside me I thought I was strong enough to change you. I thought I could make you believe in love, and that being with someone was more than just sex. I failed you, but most importantly I failed myself. I'll never forgive myself for it. I thought I was fully capable of changing someone. I failed. Everyday it gets harder and harder to wake up knowing you no longer text me good morning, or kiss me goodbye. I'm surprised I put up with you for so long, and that I'm only realizing it now. I knew I would get hurt, there was a part of me that knew I had to be careful with what I was getting myself into. You haven't only made me feel like shit, but you've also lowered my self esteem. I forgave you for calling me ugly, I forgave you for calling me a bitch. I forgave you because I was in love with you. I know how much it hurts when someone suffers from a broken heart. I hope one day you realize that you lost a girl who would of given you the world. Last night was the last straw, you told me straight out you weren't in love with me. My whole world came crashing down, the entire life I built around you collapsed in front of me. The scars you gave me, both physical and emotional will linger there for a very large amount of time. Sometimes when you love someone so much you have to learn to let go, and everyday I'm learning to let you go. It isn't going to be easy, just like being with you wasn't easy. I drove to you so many times, and you drove to me once. I know I put more into this relationship than you did. That's one thing I did right at least, I did my part. Please forgive me for caring too much about you, and for not being the girl you wanted. I know in time you'll find her. The girl you've always wanted, the girl that matches up to your needs. I hope somewhere down the road you'll realize how much I cared for you. I've given you my blood, sweat and tears. Good luck this year and the rest to come, I know one day you'll finish school and start the career you've always wanted. Thank you for letting me realize my true self and for acting like you really cared. I can't help you fix yourself, but at least I can say I tried, I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life.